To Write is to Live - A Life Update.

Dear reader, its been a long time since I touched any of my RP accounts or written anything at all really, at least two years I would say and longer since I touched this blog. After once having been so prolific and writing for hours every day, using my imagination to spin tales with my partner, creating new lives and new stories of beloved franchises, I then went to writing nothing at all, except dabble on my skyrim RP account.

It is no wonder I have not been myself, you see, because everyone needs an outlet, a truly creative outlet, to let out all those feels that you feel too much, to stop your over-active overreacting imagination from misbehaving. I realised this after going to paint pottery for a few hours last week. Those three hours were the most peaceful I have been in a very long time and the sense of accomplishment I had when I was done was as satisfying as it was exhausting.

I intend to write more short stories. I intend to start on the book I have inside myself, one that has been in my thoughts for a long while and actually started off as a real nightmare I had. A horror book that I hope has some humour in it, that has the feels in it but I'll let you be the judge of that, dear reader.

My life has changed so much in these many years. The blogs I have posted today span over at least a decade, I have edited so much of them and I'm still not happy, I guess thats the problem when you keep rereading your old work.

I have done things during and since then in my real life that I'm not proud of and I am sorry for them.

I have done things I'm immensely proud of, such as gaining my BSc degree in Law and Psychology.

I have been at the bottom and I have clawed my way back up top. I changed my life to cut out the things that hurt me and instead filled it to include new loves, witchcraft and spell work, viking reenactment and an appreciation of the good things I have now.

However, this blog post isn't really about the things I've done or my feelings or even my life but what I do intend to do from now on. And that, dear reader, is to write. Because you see, writing is everything, to write is to live, to write is to go to places you can only dream of, to write is to be who you wish to be.

Please be patient with me as I try to spindle my thoughts into actual readable words on the page, everything I post is a work in progress as I try to get better as a writer. Try and forgive when I edit it after its posted as I am constantly going back to check my work over and over.

Magic is about intent, it doesn't matter what you have as long as your intentions are there. And I intend to make magic with words. I intend to make magic that will be enjoyed. And in that time, be kind to yourself, dear reader, and to others. I've learned that kindness is the thing I had been sorely lacking in both myself and my life. And again, for that I'm sorry, however I find myself in an abundance of it these days even with this virus running rampant, and I find myself wanting to share it especially as life is so very very hard lately. Take care of yourself and those you love and who love you and make sure you tell them that.

For now though, I'll say goodnight, dearest reader. Be careful and be safe, and enjoy what I have written, if it pleases you. And do not hesitate to get in touch with me should you need a smile, a spell or whatever you find yourself needing.

xxxxx